Battling Myself

There was a fabulous episode of Radiolab on recently where they talked about battling yourself.  That there are 2 sides to every person (the side that knows what's good for you and the side that doesn't care and will do what it feels like).  I am in one of those battles right now.

I've been told by a doctor to cut out sugar for a little while and see if I can get my body back to normal. So here I am on day 1 and I'm already starring down those evil starburst that the secretary has on her desk.

The radiolab show had an example of what one woman did to quit smoking.  She was a serious hippie liberal activist and she finally decided to quit smoking.  After many failed attempts, she decided she needed an immediate disgust to battle the immediate pleasure of smoking.  She told her friend, "If I ever smoke again, you can donate money in my name to the KKK" and she never smoked again.  The "right now" pleasure of smoking was overshadowed by the "right now" disgust of being a donator to the KKK. Pretty drastic, but it worked.

So I've decided to do something similar.  I'm only giving up sugar for 2 very long weeks. So in these 2 weeks, if I eat sugar consciously (if it's snuck into a cooked food at a restaurant and it isn't obvious to me, that doesn't count) I will donate $100 to the Westboro Baptist Church. You know the ones, the fuckheads who protest at funerals?? Bastards!  Ohhhh I can feel my disgust growing as we speak.

I ask you all to help keep me accountable for this. I would HATE to have to give money to an organization that evil so I think it's motivation enough.

Bustin' Makes me Feel Good

well actually, that's a lie. Bustin' (sugar bustin to be exact) is making me cranky.  I never realized how much I rely on a little sugar boost to keep me going.  I'm really only on day 1 and I'm already sick of not putting sugar into my body.

Anyone out there done it? Removed most of the sugar from their diet?  I'm afraid I may not make it through my 2-week cleansing period without tearing someone's face off.

Day 2 of YES, A Mixed Bag

Day 2 was more of a mixture of small things I normally "poo poo". So here's what I did:

I walked, a lot. I got off a stop early and walked home.

I finished my artwork for my new CD.

I cooked. Now many of you would think I cook a lot. Not true, I BAKE a lot but hardly ever cook.  I had a friend come over and I made her dinner (Duck, Kale Chips and Cous Cous) and I did it all without stressing or breaking a sweat.  It was an easy, economical way of nourishing myself.  I need to do it more often.

Spring Cleaning. As many of you know, I participate in Mama Gena's School for the Womanly Arts. If you don't know about Mama Gena you should.  She's totally nuts and totally amazing and fun and I encourage you to look her up.  Just don't take too much stock in this video.  

Anyway, Mama Gena has a "tool" which she calls Spring Cleaning that is done in partners.  You decide on a topic you want to flush out of your system and your parter repeatedly asks you, "What do you have on ____?". You talk, she thanks you for your answer and asks you again.  This goes on for 5, 10, 15 minutes and then you switch.

I HATE Spring Cleaning.  For some reason I am totally averse to it.  I think mostly because it's done on the phone and I hate talking on the phone.  But my friend and I have figured out ways to make this a weekly ritual and make it less painful. So it usually involves dinner and actual facetime instead of the phone. So we did that last night over a home cooked meal and it was a big old YES for me.